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The Lotus Essence Tantra- A Retreat from Gomde Denmark

Dharma Friends: We have the excellent fortune of a little retreat this week live and on Zoom. It’s an exceedingly powerful and concise sadhana practice for our times, being taught by my close vajra brother Erik Pema Kunsang, live streamed from Denmark. The power and efficacy of this little practice is incomparable. I was on […]

A Healthy and Fast Way to Lose Weight

    Many of us gained weight during our Covid isolation, I’ve heard it called tongue in cheek the “Covid 19” meaning many gained just about 19lbs! I have compiled a scientifically proven weight loss plan that is healthy, simple and sustainable that I have used myself. It was recommended to me by other moms […]

Not Holy but Wholly

no matter how much dharma virtue signaling even an ocean of spiritual kudos we can gather likes and fans for our amazing proximity to something that once used to be holy it’s not genuine love and never touches the core we will be left empty ya, I once thought I was some dakini too a […]

its nature has no stain

when two mirror souls finally face each other love reflects infinitely “It only takes two facing mirrors to build a labyrinth.” ― Jorge Luis Borges       Photo thanks to: https://www.instructables.com/Infinity-Mirror-Candle-Holder/

Happy Birthday to the Dalai Lama! Reflections on Maintaining Religious Authority In Tibetan Buddhism

No sound spiritual path or religion or religious doctrine frightens, controls, exploits, abuses or hurts people or children. To my Tibetan Buddhist friends, this is a repost of years of discussion on Reddit. We should not be discussing any of this publicly, but certain teachers are publishing our secret tenets and it’s causing some confusion […]

Yogurt and Granola Parfait Sundays

Yogurt and Granola Parfait Sundays My teen daughter has… not one, not two but…three girlfriends staying over for summer vacation and it’s been hard to get them to eat a healthy breakfast. This is by far the most decadent of all of my recipes, but a sure fire way to get any sleepy breakfast-rebelling child […]

We Must Change Corruption in Tibetan Buddhism

Message from those who call out male corruption and envision a new, ethical, feminine and better way forward. #beyondmisogyny #kidstoo #hellissocialcontol #wecandobetter Tibetan Buddhist Dharma Friends: – We don’t entrap and curse people with high control, punitive vows. – We don’t control and scare people with frightening talk of 18 torturous hells in this or […]

Going Clear

for my friends still in Scientology… you know they have this 30 level graduated purification path too OTVIII “enlightenment” is it? it’s just that no one ever exhibits any qualities as promised ya, i see that in my friends too you can break the seal of that billion year contract i’m outside on the fringe […]

A Haiku that Bows to Our Human Conscience

To George Conway, Michael Cohen and other brothers and sisters who awaken from the stupor of unethical ignorance, views and conduct. I will always hold hope for our world~ for each other. the most powerful change-makers are those who have reformed through regret       How To Purify in Buddhism In Christianity: “I tell […]

Homemade Spearmint Tooth Powder

Homemade Spearmint Tooth Powder This easy to make home tooth powder makes my teeth feel very clean, white and polished! This is a modified recipe from my first peppermint tooth powder with the addition now of bentonite clay and xylitol. I love to continually perfect new recipes and the previous tooth powder cleaned well, but […]

THE BEST-Organic Dairy Free Potato Salad

Organic Dairy Free Potato Salad How To Make The VERY Best Potato Salad Recipe. The base is my grandma’s recipe and I use organic vegetables and vegan mayo- and it’s hands down the best potato salad- ever. We have our very first urban homestead herb garden this year, so the parsley is fresh from the […]

Spanish Guacamole from Mission San Juan Capistrano

My family and I used to travel to California every year and stop in an old Spanish missionary town called San Juan Capistrano, outside of San Diego. There is the oldest and best restaurant there where I called them later and asked for their authentic fresh table-side guacamole recipe. A fresh, cooling summer treat, we […]

Guru Devotion Blues

You once said that you were able to read our minds now and I believe you for sure. I’ve even spoken to you mind to mind and can see and still hear you sometimes any base tarot carny has this skill but what’s the point of knowing if when a close oldest sangha brother is […]

My Vow To The Sky Of My Heart

My life is mine and only mine as my fertile Mother Earth gave it to me and the sky of unhindered possibilities I will live it by listening to nothing else but my heart’s truth I will not be judged or defamed by someone who escapes to a Tuff Shed or dictated and defined by […]

To My Daughter, My Dharma

he held my hand all night from a cot below my hospital bed it took 15 hours and when I thought I could push no more I looked up to see a nurse in white turn on the baby warmer you were about to come it was by far the happiest moment of my life […]

the last haiku at the end of the road

It has only one generation left before it dies from this world everything that she suspected- was true, that’s why there can be no love she can not forget and blames those who hurt others it’s never ok if no friend can hear and still posts devotional doctrine every day to forge meaning to a […]

Shambhala Mountain Center Renewal 2021

Shambhala Mountain Center Renewal 2021 Dawn Sandberg added 14 new photos — with John Horner and Greg Smith at The Great Stupa Of Dharmakaya.   We had a magnificent visit to see the stupa at Shambhala Mountain Center yesterday in Colorado, who’s land was burned in the fires last year.  It was both hopeful and […]

Aztec Poblano Pepper Soup

Aztec Poblano Pepper Soup Vegetarian Mexican Roasted Poblano Pepper and Jalapeno Soup I used to visit Mexico every year and found this perfect, spicy, flavorful and hearty soup recipe. It’s reminiscent of ancient Mexico, and when I make it, I’m back there again, surrounded by colorful stone handcrafted architecture, woven bright textiles, drying peppers and […]

Healthy Vegetable Lasagna with Zucchini and Ricotta

Healthy Vegetable Lasagna with Zucchini and Ricotta This is a veggie lasagna recipe, with ingredients sourced from Trader Joes, but any store with has no-prep lasagna noodles like Barilla and organic veggies will do! This lasagna is very quick, easy to assemble and it’s a family staple, and best when we can source tomatoes, basil […]

Chai Spiced Multigrain Oatmeal

  Chai Spiced Multigrain Oatmeal A friend’s German grandfather lived until 102 and he ate warm oatmeal every morning. I like oats with a 7-Grain Cereal and whey power for added protein. A serving of this stick-to-your-ribs cereal is packed full of everything you need for an energizing morning. Our chai oatmeal is high in […]

Healthy Chocolate Date Truffles

Healthy Chocolate Date Truffles These naturally sweet treats are… AMAZING! It seems like you can blend up whatever sweets and nuts you have around the house as long as the texture can be rolled into a ball and mixed with cocoa powder, leave them in fridge overnight to set. These are just as good, sweet, […]

Divine Discontent~ Rumi

Divine Discontent ~ Winter falls upon us So spring can bring new growth. Cry the tears! Allow the longing! Sadness brings surrender and a deep desire to be free. – Rumi “I know your heart! I hear it breaking and groaning in darkest night when you imagine yourself to be silently case adrift in sleep. […]

How I Quickly Recovered From Covid Pneumonia

I found that Traditional Chinese Medicine was very effective in treating my severe case of Covid 19, very quickly. They have many ancient, proven effective herbs and remedies that act as an anti-virulence, as well as ones that target and strengthen certain organs and organ efficacy like lung function. Here is my personal experience and […]

Quinoa Crust-less Quiche Tarts

Quinoa Crust-less Quiche Tarts About Quinoa: Quinoa “grain” originated in the Andean region of northwestern South America and is a protein, dietary fiber, B vitamin rich plant from the amaranth family, that is actually an edible seed. I raise urban hens and in the spring, they are laying now so many eggs, daily, more than […]

Victory Of Maryam- Rumi

Victory Of Maryam “If you are longing to caress the moon, Don’t turn away from it! If you are not ill, why do you crawl under a blanket to hide? You are in a quarry of sweets, why do you look so sour? You live in the spring of life, why are you withered inside? […]

To Amy~ Mother God

Trigger Warning- Cults I heard rumor that you wanted to go to the hospital but your devotees did not allow you to. After you passed away, they had so much faith that they thought your corpse would ascend, yet never did. Who is to blame? The professions of self exalted divinity from a woman cursed […]

Action is the Antidote to Despair

Action is the Antidote to Despair- Joan Baez Here is my curriculum vitae or maybe my living obituary, or just a modest aspiration prayer~ I was born in Providence, Rhode Island on October 18, 1969. My mom was from a conservative waspy English/ German family and out of rebellion and to my grandparent’s dismay, was […]

Vegetarian Blue Cheese Soufflé

Vegetarian Blue Cheese Soufflé with Non-dairy or Dairy Options Ingredients: • 4 tablespoons vegan butter • 1/4 cup freshly grated Parmesan/vegan Parmesan cheese • 1/4 cup plus 2 tablespoons all-purpose flour or soy flour • 1 1/2 cups soy or oat milk • 3/4 teaspoon salt • 1/4 teaspoon cayenne • 6 ounces fresh chopped […]

On Letting Go- Anthony Hopkins

“Let go of people who are not prepared to love you. This is the hardest thing you will have to do in your life and it will also be the most important thing. Stop having hard conversations with people who don’t want change. Stop showing up for people who have no interest in your presence. […]

The Golden Eternity- Jack Kerouac

“It said that Nothing Ever Happened, so don’t worry. It’s all like a dream. Everything is ecstasy, inside. We just don’t know it because of our thinking-minds. But in our true blissful essence of mind is known that everything is alright forever and forever and forever. Close your eyes, let your hands and nerve-ends drop, […]

Love is a Light of Naked Truth

  Oftentimes the person we are upset with is the one that simply holds the mirror of what in ourselves we are unwilling to face do you then blame the messenger for their crime of offering an unaltered reflection? Or rather, the Source?   Photo by Tobias Aeppli from Pexels


all that she destroyed the veils of untruth and harm it was born from love       https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kartika_(knife) image http://www.sharchen.com/product_details.php?sku=HK1&section=Practice%20Materials

Female Buddhas and Bodhisattvas (Repost)

Reposted/ Reformatted from http://www.abuddhistlibrary.com 2001 (Images have been enhanced/replaced, copy unaltered) The enlightened women or female figures named below all come from Vajrayana or “Tibetan” Buddhism, the school of Mahayana which originated in India and later moved to Tibet and the other Himalayan countries. Hence, most figures are identified first by their Sanskrit name, with […]

Personal Wellness Update- Covid 19!

Dearest Friends, I have been off of blogging and social media for a personal crisis. I’m sorry to report that my daughter Annika has tested positive for Covid-19, and we, the mom and dad, may have it too, very probable. She went to the Grand Canyon with her friend for spring break, and we think […]

should I build the wall…

Mother Sinéad O’Connor Featuring Roger Waters & The Band Produced by Nick Griffiths & Roger Waters Album The Wall – Live in Berlin Mother do you think they’ll drop the bomb ? Mother do you think they’ll like this song ? Mother do you think they’ll try to break my balls ? Ooooh, mother should […]

Lotus Flower Art- Buddhist Great Auspicious Symbol

see detail: https://boulderreiki.com/wp-content/uploads/2021/03/lotus-auspicious-symbol-1538×2048.jpg No mud, no lotus. The Lotus Flower The Lotus Flower is a great auspicious symbol whose meaning everyone should comprehend. The Lotus Flower begins to grow at the very roots of the lotus plant that is usually submerged in the mud. Then, it slowly rises out of the mud or the muddy […]

Vegan Chick’n Marsala with Grapes

Vegan Chick’n Marsala with Grapes Ingredients: • 2T olive oil • 1 stick vegan butter • 4 vegan chick’n breast cutlets • 1/2 teaspoon black pepper • 1/2 teaspoon salt • 1 (8-oz.) pkg. crimini (baby portobello) mushrooms • 1 cup of sliced green grapes • 1/2 large white onion coarsely chopped • 1/3 cup […]

Six Simple Daily Steps for Happiness!

You know, I happen to be Buddhist, but one with an inquisitive mind. We have what we know as the Buddha’s First Noble Truth and that is: “Life is Suffering.” However, it’s a misnomer to just stop there and concede to a life of misery. I think a lot of students and even some teachers […]

intrepidity haiku

the strength of mind and heart to carry on with love in spite of dangers   “You need the insight into the radical inter-connectivity at the heart of existence, the web of life, our deep ecology. When you have that, then you know that this is not a battle between good guys and bad guys. […]

Oui ou non

Are there unwell unethical teachers out there that hurt and control their students under the guise of benefit? Are we all vow-breaking demons who were hurt and see though their human stain? Can those of us who were deeply betrayed used and discarded help each other rather than harm each other more? If we seek […]

SIMHAMUKHA Wrathful Lion-Headed Dakini

Reposted: Permission Requested of Author John Reynolds Vajranatha March 29th 2009 The Wrathful Wisdom Dakini Simhamukha In terms of these Higher Tantras, a meditation deity (yi-dam lha) who is both wrathful and female is the Jnana Dakini Simhamukha. It is important to understand that, despite her exceedingly wrathful appearance and animal head, she is not […]

Repost: Soul Shadows

Soul Shadows   “It was not witches who burned. It was women. Women who were seen as Too beautiful Too outspoken Had too much water in the well (yes, seriously) Who had a birthmark Women who were too skilled with herbal medicine Too loud Too quiet Too much red in her hair Women who had […]

for Christine- her form to fire

what do we leave? people will remember your smile many lives touched the gentle embers of warmth from your heart to ours may the last imprint of my time here fleeting be one of similar beauty and grace we all do our best love and loss joy and anguish may those that hate me so […]

Healthy Tibetan Bread- Balep Korkun

Healthy Tibetan Bread- Balep Korkun (Monastery Bread) I lived amongst Tibetans in Nepal for many years. Every morning we would get up and make a homemade kneaded bread called Balep. I used to do a lot of solitary meditation retreat there and this was the easiest an fastest thing to make on a one burner […]

Self Care- A Warm Healing Bath of Love

Be your own Valentine, a warm bouquet of roses… to you for you! Today is Valentine’s Day and one of the most amazing treats of my life that I offer to myself nightly, is just to make myself a warm Epsom salt and rose bath, with candlelight. It’s so easy to create this amazingly nutritive […]

Without Warning~ For Christine

i just found out that a close dharma sister passed last night she lived with me in my remote holy retreat town a lovely healer only in her 50’s oh dear clear water blue eyes sun-kissed smile my heart so full breaks every day here in the poignant kaliyuga what brevity our time here let […]

Swedish Lemon Mascarpone Cake

My native Swedish husband’s birthday is on Feb. 3, so every super bowl Sunday, I make him this giant cake. It’s a version of  Swedish Midsommartårta, or Midsummer Cake, and, however decadent, I have adapted it to make a somewhat healthier version. I use an organic yellow/ lemon cake base, with added cream and lemon […]

Vegetarian Swedish Falukorv

Falukorv is a Swedish staple, comfort food and even though we don’t eat pork, my family insists for me to make this regularly. Falukorv is a traditional Swedish smoked sausage that is made with potato starch and spices, kind of like a giant sausage Hebrew National Beef Frank. We’ve made a vegetarian version this stuffed […]

The only people that interest me…

“The only people that interest me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the […]

That disturbed, disorderly wind! By Carolyn Chan

Including: four stages of wind disturbance along the spiritual path (a special contribution by Segyu Choepel Rinpoche) By Carolyn Chan A grasp of the three humors: wind, bile, and phlegm, (tib. rlung, mkhrispa and badken), and their relationship to the development and functioning of the body-mind, underlies any understanding of Tibetan medicine. Good health which […]

How to Grow a Sprout Garden at Home

The Urban Homestead So, with all of us being home-bound, a lot of us are taking up more domestic tasks like homesteading and gardening. My family and I put in a series of automatic drip irrigation  4′ x 8′ prefab. gardening boxes outside, and were able to harvest quite a bit of fresh organic vegetables […]


Written by Jampa Mackenzie Stewart, M.S.O.M., L.AC. The term Qigong Deviations refers to the adverse reactions that may occur in the course of Qigong training. These reactions can be physical, energetic, and/or mental. Qigong is like medicine. It can be tremendously healing if prescribed correctly and used according to directions, but if you are careless […]

Spanokopita with a Greek Salad

Spanokopita with a Greek Salad This Greek classic is a healthy vegetarian main course and a hybrid of my Greek grandpa’s recipe and one from the Colorado yoga retreat center Shoshoni. Serve with Greek Feta and Kalamata Olive, Cucumber and Tomato Salad and Ttzatziki.   Ingredients: 2 pounds fresh spinach or two packages of chopped […]

Vegetable Potato Galette

Vegetable Potato Galette A perfect Vegetarian Main Course! Potato galette is a staple in the French countryside. The word “galette” is French and simply means “flat cake.” Serve for dinner as a vegetarian main course with a side salad, for lunch, or as a brunch side dish. This recipe includes mushrooms, peppers and onions, but […]

Flourless Chocolate Lava Cake with Vegan Butter

This super easy 4 ingredient lava cake is a gourmet family favorite, that you can whip up in 30 minutes or less! It works well with vegan butter and coconut sugar, but regular butter and sugar can be substituted 1-1. Serves 5. Ingredients • 8 ounces bittersweet chocolate chips • 12 tablespoons (one stick and […]

Vegetarian Gnocchi with Spinach and Parmesan

Vegetarian Gnocchi with Spinach and Parmesan A colorful and comforting vegetarian main dish! I try to use all organic/ non-gmo ingredients whenever possible. One of our family’s all time favorites. Ingredients: 2 (17-ounce) packages potato gnocchi 3 cups heavy cream 1 cup vegetable broth 1/4 cup all-purpose flour 1/2 teaspoon salt 1/2 stick of butter […]


A few years ago, I discovered an amazing relationship technique called Imago, a transformative compassion technique developed by Dr. Harville Hendrix and Dr. Helen LaKelly Hunt. I offer a summary of this technique as part of our relationship repair program. It is exceedingly powerful and can help people that have given up on friendships, relationships […]

Easy Homemade Naturally Sweetened Granola

Easy Homemade Naturally Sweetened Granola This easy to make healthy granola recipe is naturally, lightly sweetened with coconut sugar or granulated monkfruit. It’s made with oats, coconut oil or vegan butter and you can add your choice of nuts and fruit. This one is a Chai-Almond but you can add almost anything. Go wild~ try […]

Dawn Boiani-Sandberg relays dharma insights from interviews with Tsoknyi & Thrangu Rinpoche

Last year, I met with the number of noted Buddhist teachers here in Crestone Colorado, including Tsoknyi Rinpoche and Thrangu Rinpoche about the future of our Dharma practice after some of the concerns of the #metoo movement and many scandals were exposed. We had heartfelt, forthright discussions concerning misconduct, abuse, authoritarian power, cults and cult-think […]

Apple Custard Puff Pastry

Easy, Healthy Apple Custard Puff Pastry, Ready in 1 hour! Ingredients: 1 ½ lb frozen puff pastry thawed (2 sheets) 1/3 cup brown sugar/honey/ brown rice syrup 1 T sugar or granulated monkfruit sugar ½ tsp cinnamon 3 large apples washed and unpeeled thinly sliced 1/3 cup sliced almonds 1 organic egg ½ tsp powdered […]

One Life~ Real Love

Meet me in the realm of truth, the vastness of the shaman. The stars and sky of manifestation in-between nihilism and religion’s false promise of some continuity of the self. We awaken from the opiate of the masses. In our raw, fragile impermanence we take nothing for granted we make every single precious passing moment […]

Be The Lamp

“As soon as you  press the switch to turn on the light in the room that has been dark for ten thousand years, in that instant all the darkness is gone. Ten thousand years of darkness is dispelled in one moment.” -Tulku Urgyen Rinpoche it’s so very hard excruciating to look honestly rawly at the […]

Low Carb Chocolate Raspberry Muffins

Low Carb, High Protein Healthy Chocolate Raspberry Muffins/ Scones These are high protein low carb and highly nutritive, so we can feel good about offering these to our family. I’ve been experimenting with keto and paleo baking and found that I like to add organic white flour for 1/3 of the recipe. I know it’s […]

Golden Moon Milk Calming Tea

What is Golden Moon Milk Calming Tea? Feeling a bit overwhelmed? When I start to feel a bit anxious, I immediately take that as a sign to take it easy and go into self care. One of the very first things I do, is make Golden Milk, it’s essentially Turmeric and Ashwagandha powder tea. Golden […]

Trauma Bonds~ Healing from Narcissistic Abuse

Narcissistic/ Borderline Abuse is much more ubiquitous than we know. Any contact with unfeeling, abusive people can be some of the most heartbreaking and damaging relationships we ever encounter and without education, can literally destroy lives, careers, health and families. Every one of us, most likely at some stage of life, has had some contact […]

Vegetarian Loaded Nachos with Melted Cheddar

  Decadent and Healthy Vegetarian Loaded Nacho Casserole with Melted Cheddar Yield Makes 6 servings Ingredients ◦ 1 and 1/2 bags  (15 oz) of organic tortilla chips ◦ 1 can of organic vegetarian re-fried beans ◦ 1/4 teaspoon ground cumin or taco seasoning ◦ 1/4 cup sliced black olives ◦ 3 tablespoons jalapeño slices fresh […]

Twin Flames- Our Spiritual Consort Toward Ascension

The Tantric Consort: Awakening Through Relationship In our semi-apocalyptic time, it seems like many of us are going very deeply into introspection now. Very profound reflection is occurring on a global scale and our very species is on the precipice of survival. I believe that sometimes things have to get very dark before we have […]

Keto Chocolate Walnut Brownies

Keto Chocolate Walnut Brownies How to make easy low carb keto brownies with paleo or almond flour. Prep Time 15 minutes Cook time 20 minutes Total Time 1 hour Yield 8 – 10 brownies Ingredients: • 1 cup paleo or almond flour • 1/4 cup cocoa powder or 80 grams of unsweetened chocolate • 2 […]

The Four Powers to Purify All Negative Karma

“Drive All Blames Into Oneself” Humans, throughout time immemorial have been capable of committing the most cruelest crimes imaginable, some intentional, some based on self defense, emotional reaction or ignorance. However, there is always hope for regret and personal change if we really desire to do so. We cannot have contrition and heal negative karmic […]

Buffalo Cauliflower Hot Wings

Buffalo Cauliflower Hot Wings I think this is hands down, our family’s all time favorite vegetarian dinner. You can use butter and blue cheese dressing or substitute vegan options for these two. We make these for watching sports or for special occasions and it’s amazing how flavorful the cauliflower is with the hot red chili […]

Chai Spiced Paleo Scones with Berry Compote

Chai Spiced Paleo Scones with Berry Compote A best friend visited one summer morning and I made her some super easy and healthy Chai Spiced Paleo Scones: wheatless, sugarless, flour-less, high protein, and densely nutritive. Now I’m making them again for the fall, when a warm oven is welcome. They are perfect topped with spreadable […]

Comforting Spiced Kitchari Dal Bhat

This Comforting Spiced Kitchari Dal Bhat, is a modified version of the nutritive, cleansing Kitchari from the spiritual community of Shoshoni, and a shoutout to a lifetime yogi friend for his cooking instructions. Dal Bhat which means lentils and rice, is a staple the food served daily in Nepal and India. When you combine the […]

Roasted Root Vegetables with Baked Tofu

Welcome the fall and harvest! A perfect easy, healthy cookie sheet dinner with colorful oven roasted root vegetables and baked tofu. Vegan, gluten-free and kosher. Ingredients • 1 lb tofu sliced lengthwise • 1 large yam or sweet potato washed with skin on • 3/4 pounds brussel sprouts cut in half • 1/2 pound beets […]

D.I.Y. Thieves Essential Oil and Cleaner

The History of Thieves Oil In times of plague, pandemic and now Covid, humans have relied on powerful essential oils to utilize their anti-bacterial qualities. The historic folklore of this famous Thieves remedy is quite intriguing. The use of thieves oil dates back to the year 1413, at the time, the notorious Bubonic Plague was […]

Mediterranean Vegetarian Meat Loaf

As you all know, cutting out/ eating less meat is a great way to decrease our carbon footprint- this healthy, veggie infused semi-gourmet Mediterranean Vegetarian Meat Loaf comes out really well- do try it! Its great with mashed potatoes or mashed cauliflower and a roasted red pepper sauce as a condiment. 2 packs (800g) of […]

Healthy Love Vs. Trauma Bonds

I think in these days of speed and trauma and a lot of us living in the Internet, I think we’ve learned maladaptive patterns of what it is to be in a healthy relationship. If we’ve grown up with a dysfunctional family, we may not even know what that is. Oftentimes love is just a […]

Real Spiritual Healing is Not Peaceful

I was a hopeful spiritual seeker and found the exotic and colorful, Tibetan Buddhism when I was 19. I recall when I started on this Buddhist path and went to Naropa, a Buddhist inspired university, they gave me all types of warnings, saying “think twice before you embark upon this path.” They said it was […]

Tsoknyi Rinpoche on Essence Love

“Don’t look outside outside happiness outside love is great we need it but without essence love… we might not be able to receive love because we are receiving from our hollowness we must receive love from the basis of this okay-ness we must give love from this wellbeing to others… Please expand this love… gradually […]

a diamond in the mirror

Real strength comes not from trying to run cower, or control our world with it’s perceived rough edges and barbs but rather like a mirror open, feeling, vulnerable not rejecting or chasing but reflecting what is. All is included in the path we don’t parse out good and evil friend or foe spiritual vs. worldly. […]

What If? A poem by Ganga White

  What If? a poem by Ganga White   What if our religion was each other? If our practice was our life? If prayer was our words? What if the Temple was the Earth? If forests were our church? If holy water—the rivers, lakes and oceans? What if meditation was our relationships? If the Teacher […]

3 Secret Recipes for Tibetan Hot Sauce!

This hot sauce is amazingly flavorful and versatile. It’s like Tibetan Momo (dumpling) sauce, called Sepen, but it’s oil and chili based rather than tomato. The recipe is highly coveted. I begged for my Buddhist Shambhala friends to disclose the most profound secret teaching, my friend claimed that it’s the “most important” wisdom we hold. […]

Homemade Cocoa Butter Face Cream Recipe

I was amazed to discover the very best natural face cream and now use it every.single.day. I would say it’s no less than the fountain of youth. I was taught how to make this by my flower-child neighbor who uses only the best organic and well sourced ingredients that she buys in bulk from various […]

Bhutanese Tri Color Pepper and Cheese Ema Datshi

Bhutanese (American) Tri Color Pepper and Cheese Ema Datshi Vegetarian (not vegan) main course~ with rice, the best one yet! I was in the Buddhist Kingdom of Bhutan for a week in 1992, and we camped out in a small remote town called Paro, it was amazing and utterly magical. Everyone should visit Bhutan someday […]

Going Dairy Free? The Best Vegan Butters Reviewed

The Top Three Plant Based Butters I don’t know about you, but I for one can’t cook or barely survive for that matter, without butter. I tried a high fat Keto diet and it sent my bad cholesterol, triglycerides etc. through the roof. Now, I’m dairy free (except whey) and feeling great. I’ve been recently […]

Home Made Keto Coffee Creamer

Part of the new wellness life is to not eat any dairy, sugar or any gluten, or at least much less. I’ve seen a lot of my friends live that way but never really jumped on that restrictive bandwagon until I became a wellness coach, and it feels…great! I am however permitted to have well […]

The Density of Light

a Sunflower never bows nor concedes to night’s oppressive falsity but with unending devotion all of her her seeds and petals blinding yellow open she will revere and drink the bright wisdom of Warmth Closeup Photo of Sunflowers Photo by Peter Fazekas from Pexels  

extrusion of the real

At a certain stagelater in lifeyou just want someonewho feels like home to see who you areto dig your trite beat poemsand your impassioned politicsyour mindand your heart just as it isjust as you arejust as they are what a rare gift to befinally seenfor once,before it’s over! Nothing needed tobe alteredimproved and to see […]

We Are Growing Up Spiritually

To my Dharma and spiritual seeker family who are now questioning Gurus, what is real and how to move forward. I love you all still some teachers and their minions hurt many, if not all of us men women and children in very deep ways. Spiritual criminality is the gravest of crimes. Our vows to […]

Seed of the Hidden Sun

Her eyes lift to the still sky blurred through vitreous fluid tears eye floaters she was told once to revere clear and refracted rainbow seeds wondering if there was any divinity left to hear her prayer beckoning only unresponsive silence searing steam of words leak through these electronic cracks great passion suggesting molten volcano eruption […]

Limerence of Tantra

I sought solace in you from a barbarian family you assured refuge and a warm white blanket of trust and it has been revealed that you just wanted to sleep with me callously for your pleasure extract my devotion money and very identity a lifetime of indentured servitude you mandated that I put you above […]


Ode to Kerouac, Burroughs and Ginsberg

https://allthatsinteresting.com/beatniks-new-york#1 Lineage fathers, I supplicate your sordid AH divinity. ཨ   I had the privilege of meeting Burroughs at the Naropa Institute in the early 90’s, I recall him being very stoic, and indeed no one could prevent him from smoking inside. He smoked slowly intentionally, and the oddly disturbing and reverent imprint of him, […]

You May Find Yourself

the colorful forms of exile the entrapment of marriage vows religion vows that we used to procure safety identity security escape anchored ground the suppressive cocoon like cellular elements of our very lives meaningless jobs perfunctory rituals even our children owned by everyone other than ourselves felt all now like an unwelcome dream a prison […]

An Homage to Simone

you don’t have to be wealthy beautiful know every mudra and mantra nor current event nor elucidate many sonnets from Blake and Keats or even Sartre you don’t even have to be kind nor even sane for that matter all that I desire now left in this world is when I speak is for you […]

she script~ the pen that writes itself

petals of pinecones opened by thunder struck forest fire ending of time renewing seed in center of tongue spits blessings dense brocade in space crafts nebulas to noses eternally no origin point a pineapple dries itself in the desert his cheek on mine no more bosom center block i can i know one day pecha […]

iconoclast of true spirituality

if we listen inside to the Tao’s wholesome truth we can no longer support nor uphold any of the architectural tenets of faux religion or thought that still maintain a profoundly dark, rotting dystopian underbelly of hurting others lest we continue in complicity the dry soil must be overturned fertilized with transparent light genuine golden […]


She could feel and knew intimately his aloneness disconsolate a self banished hermit seeking forest refuge and silence from his own mind filled with exceeding intellect, genius even. A virtuoso of doctrine but his inner terrain devoid of what his sanctified texts point to. Loveless the cosplay of religious titled escapism spiritual bypassing. The hope […]

Revised: The 14 Root Tantric Inspirations for the New Millennium

Buddhists scholars historically, are fond of lists. Many are feeling that this exceedingly male dominated tradition led way to some dated, heavy handed tenets and it’s been suggested to rewrite them, remove punishment and hellish fears altogether. Tantric vows bind the  yogic meditation practitioner to their own goodness, purity and heart. These revised root downfalls, […]

Words of my (mostly) Perfect Teacher

“We have to connect with and find strength in our own Buddha Nature,This is not copyrighted by any Lama or Buddha or BodhisattvaThere are many great things within us and in our world,qualities of warmth, wisdom even the Buddha’s monksfrom the onset, had misconduct here and theredon’t fixate and reify the negative, impure things relax […]

To Improve, Not Negotiable

my blonde daughter’s pale white cheekthe morning snowflakes melt in her hairso few years with us,she anticipates a raresnow day with joy green blue planetgoes silentwill we becometo spacea mere memoryof what once was remembered byno onemetal satellite waste in orbitcircles eternallya voyager time capsulerecordinga testament to ushaving once been herenow silent earth dry crusted […]

Musings from Retreat: to do or die

Alone intentionally I eat dhal-bhat in silence and shocked by how sweet a little cut carrot really is and the swirl of red hot sauce mixed with yogurt blended delightfully on a bright yellow plate depression can only come when you are not awake to the blazing senses of your world I feel whole but […]

Musings from Retreat- Let Me Feel Alive Again

Unplug me from your life draining mediaLet me feel the sun on coconut oiled skinand the scent of tangerinesLet me breathe all of the pain out of every poreLet me see the glistening sparkle color worldLet my eyes shine againLet me feel still and listen to the crows and cricketsLet me feel cool water as […]

No Exit

All that she createdwas a lavishprison that she could onlypeerout into theworld from. He reminded herof thefreedomthat she once knew. —————— Title “No Exit” borrowed from screenplayby Jean-Paul Sartre, retitled as “Sinners Go to Hell,” 1962 English adaptation of Jean Paul Sartre’s “Huis Clos” (No Exit / In Camera)   image of SARTRE and SIMONE […]

a story… (the awesome power of bullies)

  Only seven years old decrepit east coast schoolyard Ebony eyed and haired girl- A Scorpio, the most callous kind Struck me with all force against the cheek with no provocation other than my vulnerability. I held my face with vociferous tears sobbing, did not speak, did not fight back, and kneeled in shocked sorrow. […]


Without Her~ even He cannot manifest. ________________________________ http://www.khandro.net/objects_staff_trident.htm Staff of the Consort Images of Guru Rinpoche’s most famous consort, Yeshe Tsogyel, depict her also with a khatvanga.  Hers is topped with a vajra.  Standing for the presence of Padmasambhava, it indicates her inseparability from him.

Electric Heroin

Electric Heroin Flickering face fixation, our scrumptious nouveau e-opiate. This very act of trying to remedy our aloneness, creates it. Delirium tremor detox shaking hand resisting the apple’s siren call. Unplug from the mainline, retract long, deep breaths Alone… No more. Our etymological forefathers were very wise- Settling, simple, all is even now~ Al-one.

Her Soliloquy

She briskly wakes me Every morning at 4:30am Before the sun, all seems silent The mind’s eye sees the electric multicolored oscillating phantasmagoria of space Roaring, tinnitus speaks a warm soliloquy mother’s arms of unending space ultimately comforting our true face anticipating the delicious creation of another illusory day.   photo: Soap Bubbles in sunlight […]


One small apperceptive beingComes into a life from nothingFrom parents generating warmthtwo hands take away the coldso for one moment they do not feel alone Family gives the illusion of comfort and securitylamenting to conceal the vacuitytaking on more and more work to sustainso many forms, so muchand at the end, after so many tears […]